Hotel Room

Have you ever noticed that hotel rooms have the most expensive bedroom you will ever stay in? There was no room for me at the Air Force inns so I had to leave base to stay in a hotel, which truly upset me because now the few hours I got with Brian 1st are no longer private because he can't leave the base and 2nd are shorter because he has pt at night. Needless to say I'm at the Best Western until Wednesday because Wednesday I may be able to go back to the Air Force inns (yaye!). The funny thing is I am in the EXACT same room that Brian and I stayed in when I came to see him when Zaylee was 6-7 weeks old - so that is kind of entertaining.

I'm loosing my drive for our upcoming "vacation" the anticipation of it is getting to me - and I've already had two anxiety attacks. Which isn't like me - prior to being married I could have cared less about people's crankiness, but now it seems a bit more important I guess. But everyone is getting to me - I have gotten pretty upset at numerous family members demands and so they have been e-mailing my father instead or just not e-mailing at all. Some family members have gotten upset because since I "refuse" to tell them our plans and the dates we will be where I am just causing so many problems, it seems no matter how many times I say "I honestly have NO idea when we will be able to leave" they don't believe me. My mom is helpful as usual though - she is pretty chill, she's gotten a little pushy and cranky about stuff but when I can't answer questions because I don't have the answers there isn't much I can do. In any case she said she was thinking about her mom's cousin or some such relative I believe his name was Frank, he served in the Army (yeah my family has a long army history). She said that she remembers him only coming home twice in her childhood - and remembers that he always seemed frazzled and everyone was upset because they never knew when he would come home OH and he married a southern girl (BIG no-no). Anyway she says he never came home after the second trip - and she says now she understands why. Not only is it hard to please everyone - but military life is very different from civilian life and sometimes people just don't understand - so it's nice to have my mom at least understand why I'm stressed.
Last night I think Zaylee Ann may have finally gotten a little used to Brian - yaye! It was a long weekend with a tired child who REFUSED to sleep when Brian was around without putting up a big fight (not normal for her) but last night while I made dinner and Brian took care of her she fell asleep without a fuss. It was so nice - and I'm sure there will still be some uneasiness with her and Brian for a while longer but I think the worst of it may be over.