Tapping my foot....

Well Zaylee Ann and I are at Sheppard AFB, trying to help the process of getting Brian out of here move along a bit faster....but to little avail. The time keeps getting added for one reason or another which only brings with it more heartache at the realization that while we may get to spend a few hours a day with Brian it still means we have to say goodbye soon because the chances of me going with Brian are slim to none. While the paperwork needed for Brian to leave is done - mine could still take 2 months, meaning no Thanksgiving or Christmas together, and possibly my birthday the way things are going. It is possible it may only be a short time before I get to go to England - but Brian was supposed to leave two weeks ago....so I have no thought of getting my hopes up. Once my passport arrives I can apply for a visa which will take anywhere from 14-45 days...and they say count on the 45 days, after I have my visa I have to wait on the Air Force to book me a flight. So while it is great to see Brian the 3ish hours a day it is also nerve racking - first because Zaylee doesn't know him so she is a terror every night - and I get no sleep. It is getting easier, but it is a slow process and I DREAD having to go through it again once we finally get to England. Second because even though I enjoy this time with Brian I can't stand to see his face when we talk about having to be apart longer - and frankly it hurts us both when people act the way they have been acting. My aunt for instance has sent me two threathening e-mails about what will happen if she doesn't get her way - and how it's unfair that I am going to be separated from my family for years and won't spend more time with her or my grandmother. Okay first off my aunt and I have NEVER really gotten along, and while I love my family dearly it frankly doesn't matter that I will be spending the next few years of my life with Brian...I was kind of planning to spend the rest of my life with him and it's weird that people think that I should wait to be with him or he should wait to be with me just because of what they want - Brian and I are married and um...doesn't every other person in both of our families spend their time with their spouse? We spend 7 months apart having more of a relationship with our phones then with each other and now everyone has a big hoo-ha over us choosing each other over them....bla. Oh and she thought she could scare me is what is such a hoot - my aunt threatened me with bodily harm if I didn't let her do what she wanted with Zaylee - first off Zaylee has never been discussed and second....who does that? She hasn't talked to me in 3 years and she sends me an e-mail about what will and won't happen with my family....I swear some people drink some strange water. Oh well - I still haven't gotten Brian's phone working...it seems to keep slipping further down the lists of must do things....hopefully by the end of this week I will have that taken care of - but I'm not sure so we will let you know when he does have a phone.

In other news I've been seriously considering not finishing my Masters....so prayer for that decision would be appreciated as I'm kind of lost as to where to go next.

Hope everyone is having a good week!