Nothing is ever as it seems....

Women are by nature creatures who cannot for the life of them keep their mouths shut...it's a woman thing...we talk...a lot. What has amazed me over the past months is how often women have told me "no" in some way shape or form - There's no way you can have natural childbirth - You won't even make it through labor without screaming for drugs - the days after the baby is born you won't be able to walk because of all the trauma down yonder - you won't be able to do diaper free - you will never get sleep - nursing will be so hard - the list goes on and on. I don't know but I think some of those women are a bit pansy-ish - Labor was nothing really, sure it was hard, but I guess I had it built up to be so horrific in my head that it didn't bug me at all, up until the final transition I was dancing and stretching through my contractions. Sure it wasn't the most comfortable thing to give birth, but honestly after the transition and I hurled for what seemed an eternity the endorphins were released and it wasn't that bad....the only time I screamed was out of frustration because I could feel Zaylee's head hitting my pelvis and I couldn't push her past that point. I walked to my room from the delivery room - even though they made a big deal about offering me a wheel chair because they said I wouldn't be able to walk....the only problems I had were from exhaustion. My baby doesn't really cry...I attend to her quickly and try to stay focused on any cues she is trying to give me....these other women who think that it's all going to change - well they were wrong about everything else lol. Oh and as for the diaper free, for those who want to know, we are on day three, normally I have 12 dirty diapers to clean from the day time hours 8am-8pm today I only have 4 - so its going well and it's been rather exciting to see the progress in just three days!

I find it amazing that very few people believed in me, but I guess it doesn't matter because at the end of the day I have realized that Brian has always told me I could do it and his faith in me never sways...which is astounding to me....but he's always believed in me and that's all that matters. Besides most women who are so willing and ready to share advice hardly know me - so all the crazy women on the mountain well they can just be crazy....proving them wrong is just a cherry on my day :)